♥ Sunday, April 29, 2007.
i don't know what am i doing now.
my mind is in a semi blank state.
i feel so depressed again.
i feel like my heart is sinking
today was really bad.
i felt pissed with everybody.
even my ever so kindly grandma.
i felt that everyone hated me too.
im incorrigible for thinking about things.
today felt so much worse than yesterday night when i reached home.
everything seems like its covered in a layer of hate thats aiming towards me.
im so tired of feeling like that.
can someone brainwash me?
as in literally wash my brain.hahaha.
im just so tired.
people may not understand why i feel like that.
perphaps you guys feel irritated by me.
but i do not want to be like this too.
i just want someone:
my mind is in a semi blank state.
i feel so depressed again.
i feel like my heart is sinking
today was really bad.
i felt pissed with everybody.
even my ever so kindly grandma.
i felt that everyone hated me too.
im incorrigible for thinking about things.
today felt so much worse than yesterday night when i reached home.
everything seems like its covered in a layer of hate thats aiming towards me.
im so tired of feeling like that.
can someone brainwash me?
as in literally wash my brain.hahaha.
im just so tired.
people may not understand why i feel like that.
perphaps you guys feel irritated by me.
but i do not want to be like this too.
i just want someone:
- who will have idle chats with me knowing that im not okay even though i say im just bored.
- who knows when my mood changed.
- who knows im super duper sensitive to things that don't matter at all.
- who is willing to spend time to get me to talk when i clam up.
- who will just talk to me and share their thoughts
- who is willing to listen to me grumble and grouse.
- who understands me
- and who accepts me for who i am.
i don't thinki will ever find such a person.i gave up trying.
i just want someone who really cares.
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♥ Friday, April 20, 2007.
at gladys's hse now.
blogging while she's bathing.
got to dash off soon to meet nicole,gwen and norman at amk.
ltr is speech day alrdy
abit worried that i will make mistake.
everyone is going to be there today.
worry will cannot balance when turn tt time then will malu.
alamak.hahahas.lol.
this week.
wasnt as good as i thought.
but still.it was good cos of certain people that showed me they cared.
although those words still do ring in my mind.
but im trying my best to get over it.
i know i will be able to do it de.
norman is hurrying me now.
hahahas..but wads the point of going so early..
nicole's not even done yet.
and thankyou to leon.
thanks for helping me lah.
if not will have probably failed the darn transformation test.
13/25
i passed!
wheeee.(:
i got to go le.
bye(:
blogging while she's bathing.
got to dash off soon to meet nicole,gwen and norman at amk.
ltr is speech day alrdy
abit worried that i will make mistake.
everyone is going to be there today.
worry will cannot balance when turn tt time then will malu.
alamak.hahahas.lol.
this week.
wasnt as good as i thought.
but still.it was good cos of certain people that showed me they cared.
although those words still do ring in my mind.
but im trying my best to get over it.
i know i will be able to do it de.
norman is hurrying me now.
hahahas..but wads the point of going so early..
nicole's not even done yet.
and thankyou to leon.
thanks for helping me lah.
if not will have probably failed the darn transformation test.
13/25
i passed!
wheeee.(:
i got to go le.
bye(:
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♥ Tuesday, April 17, 2007.
in the com lab now for cme.
mood has been very good these few days
the afternoon rains and the occasional breeze kept me happy today.
im so happy today that i could float up if i could.
hahahahas(:
hais.tdy got speech day rehearsal.
full dress again tdy.
ytd go UCC for syf rehearsal.
reach hm at 9.15pm.
so tired.but still studied for emath.
darn transformation.
so i asked people for help.
so in the end bathed at 10.30
bye(:
mood has been very good these few days
the afternoon rains and the occasional breeze kept me happy today.
im so happy today that i could float up if i could.
hahahahas(:
hais.tdy got speech day rehearsal.
full dress again tdy.
ytd go UCC for syf rehearsal.
reach hm at 9.15pm.
so tired.but still studied for emath.
darn transformation.
so i asked people for help.
so in the end bathed at 10.30
bye(:
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♥ Saturday, April 14, 2007.
the famousfive(:
plus candid shot of peifen, gwen and half of yanyi at the back
whew,
just came back from far east.
bought materials to make a necklace and a necklace
and another crown ring.
hahahas.
brought meimei to have the fried mars bars and mangolingo.
she fell in love with it.hahahas.
ytd was the sports carnival.
even though the rain was on/off
it continued.and we had pretty much fun luhh
we cheered for serena,khai,kailin and mr phua.
and i tell you,
talking to mr phua will give you a heart attack.
his sarscastic remarks are always praising himself.
hahas!
and he and nicole are always suaning each other.
damm comical i tell you.
then went for dinner with nicole,peifen,youjin,khai,venice,zhengrui and norman
this had been very emotional week for me.
there had been ups and downs
but mostly downs as usual.
thankyou to the people that listened to me again and again
espicially ytd.
i feel that it some how became a chore for you guys.
and i feel really bad.
but sometimes i really just cannot control my feelings
thankyou for being there(:
something from tingyuan's blog hit me really hard.
if something is yours,it'll always come back to you.if it doesn't,it never was yours
i guess you were never mine.
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♥ Monday, April 9, 2007.
ahahahas
blogging over at casse's hse now.
and eating black carrot cake.
as in with dark soy sauce.
just now smth really crappy happened.
when i was buying chai tao kuey
casse asked me wad isit.
den i forgot wad it was called in english.
she asked it if it was carrot cake,of cos i said yes.
and den i told her:
i was about to tell you it was
chaii daoo ghwee.
hahahas!
and when we came back to her hse..
i asked her:
do you want to share?
and she said:
no.i only eat white one.
i'm racist.
i laughed real crazy.
she was joking of course..
and she's addicted to it now(:
5 items wasnt so bad thats all luh.
but i didnt hit A for sit up
left abit.
alamak.but..
sit and reach i hit 57!!!!
overshot A liao!wheeee.
bye(:
blogging over at casse's hse now.
and eating black carrot cake.
as in with dark soy sauce.
just now smth really crappy happened.
when i was buying chai tao kuey
casse asked me wad isit.
den i forgot wad it was called in english.
she asked it if it was carrot cake,of cos i said yes.
and den i told her:
i was about to tell you it was
chaii daoo ghwee.
hahahas!
and when we came back to her hse..
i asked her:
do you want to share?
and she said:
no.i only eat white one.
i'm racist.
i laughed real crazy.
she was joking of course..
and she's addicted to it now(:
5 items wasnt so bad thats all luh.
but i didnt hit A for sit up
left abit.
alamak.but..
sit and reach i hit 57!!!!
overshot A liao!wheeee.
bye(:
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♥ Sunday, April 8, 2007.
wahh.just finished dinner.
so full.
i miss my vitagen!
i didnt get to drink it since erhh..ytd.
hahahas
i drink about 3-4 of it everyday.
and no,i don't get tummy aches because of that.
although i do go to the toilet mre often now.hahs.
hais.this coming week grandma go holiday liao.
wahhhhhh.i want to go.
no.she's going china.i want to go cruise.hahahas
argh.have to go home myself with my sis ltr.
dad's not here tdy.aunty not feeling well so i think he's taking care of her.
oh man.i dread going home from grandma hse at nite.
nvm,perphaps i shall hitch a ride from my granduncle.
okayy.granduncle sounds so old
but he's my grandma's sister's husband.
he's 50+ i think?
his son who is my uncle,is only 1 year older than me.
hahas.i have a interesting family.
im crapping here as i have nothing to do.
wth.i just remembered.tmr got napfa 5 items.
i shall get it over and done with.
i shall end here and go downstairs and stone infront of the telly.
(:
so full.
i miss my vitagen!
i didnt get to drink it since erhh..ytd.
hahahas
i drink about 3-4 of it everyday.
and no,i don't get tummy aches because of that.
although i do go to the toilet mre often now.hahs.
hais.this coming week grandma go holiday liao.
wahhhhhh.i want to go.
no.she's going china.i want to go cruise.hahahas
argh.have to go home myself with my sis ltr.
dad's not here tdy.aunty not feeling well so i think he's taking care of her.
oh man.i dread going home from grandma hse at nite.
nvm,perphaps i shall hitch a ride from my granduncle.
okayy.granduncle sounds so old
but he's my grandma's sister's husband.
he's 50+ i think?
his son who is my uncle,is only 1 year older than me.
hahas.i have a interesting family.
im crapping here as i have nothing to do.
wth.i just remembered.tmr got napfa 5 items.
i shall get it over and done with.
i shall end here and go downstairs and stone infront of the telly.
(:
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♥ Saturday, April 7, 2007.
another if question.(my sis keeps asking me these)
if you had only one wish,would you wish for
(a) money
(b) the person that you love
tag your answer.
if you had only one wish,would you wish for
(a) money
(b) the person that you love
tag your answer.
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♥ .
my dinner has gone missing.
ring up the press!
hahas.lol
im super bored.
im down with a little flu that chose to come during tuition just now.
had fun ytd with tingyuan,gladys,sammo and wenting,
went town,
and the two shopping queens(gladys&wenting) did their stuff,which is shop.
from wisma to fareast.
even me,this girl who brought less than $50 bought stuff.
hahahas.the power of shopping.
but weirdly,the money that i spent went to them.
cos we went to this diy beads shop.
and then i decided to make necklace for thefamousfives and wenting.
so we bought materials.
sam wenting tingyuan bought too to make their own necklaces.
so cool was that shop.
the pendants that they sold there waas so pretty.
and we discovered that..
all the nice necklaces which are sold at $30+$40+,
the materials and pendants can be found at the shop.
and the cost for making them dun even cost more than $5.
must as well diy rite?!
so yah.i decide to go back there soon.
this particular pendant caught my eye.hehs.
we had dinner early at bout 6+
cos our legs were really tired.hahahas
the duck noodle shop.(:
and after we went to gladys's home to diy.
cinderella story was showing on telly.just nice
the unlucky part of ytd was this bitch bird decided to shit while i was walking under it.
so yah,you know the rest.
my dinner isnt here yet!
and im hungry.it's almost nine!
ohh.i just realised.dinner is in a pot downstairs.
dear me.it's cold fish porridge for dinner.
hais.what else to do..
i shall go eat.bleahhhhhhhh.
ring up the press!
hahas.lol
im super bored.
im down with a little flu that chose to come during tuition just now.
had fun ytd with tingyuan,gladys,sammo and wenting,
went town,
and the two shopping queens(gladys&wenting) did their stuff,which is shop.
from wisma to fareast.
even me,this girl who brought less than $50 bought stuff.
hahahas.the power of shopping.
but weirdly,the money that i spent went to them.
cos we went to this diy beads shop.
and then i decided to make necklace for thefamousfives and wenting.
so we bought materials.
sam wenting tingyuan bought too to make their own necklaces.
so cool was that shop.
the pendants that they sold there waas so pretty.
and we discovered that..
all the nice necklaces which are sold at $30+$40+,
the materials and pendants can be found at the shop.
and the cost for making them dun even cost more than $5.
must as well diy rite?!
so yah.i decide to go back there soon.
this particular pendant caught my eye.hehs.
we had dinner early at bout 6+
cos our legs were really tired.hahahas
the duck noodle shop.(:
and after we went to gladys's home to diy.
cinderella story was showing on telly.just nice
the unlucky part of ytd was this bitch bird decided to shit while i was walking under it.
so yah,you know the rest.
my dinner isnt here yet!
and im hungry.it's almost nine!
ohh.i just realised.dinner is in a pot downstairs.
dear me.it's cold fish porridge for dinner.
hais.what else to do..
i shall go eat.bleahhhhhhhh.
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♥ .
if there's no tomorrow,
would you tell the someone you loved secretly,your feelings
or,will you leave this world with regrets?
tag your answer.♥
would you tell the someone you loved secretly,your feelings
or,will you leave this world with regrets?
tag your answer.♥
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♥ Wednesday, April 4, 2007.
in emath period now.(:
com lab.
didnt come school ytd.
feel like a holiday lah.
cos ytd overslept.hahas.
slack at home.and rested
drank plenty of vitagen and got a stomach ache.lol..
meimei fell sick too.
high fever,flu cough.and two days of mc!
cant slp the whole nite ytd.
now having aches all over.
and slight headache.
ltr still got bio test.arghh
dun expect to pass again.
eee,
going to see doctor tdy.
cos of skin prob.sounds pretty disgusting.
hahas.lol
the weather is so hot now.
its not helping my skin...........i want aircon!
i want to go to the beach..
when its about to rain.
then it will be really windy till you have to strain your ears to hear your own voice.
the feeling of engulfment by the wind is so nice lah.
its like cutting you off from the world and all your troubles
its a form of running away from reality i suppose.
hais.
that's all.
i shall go do my differentiation.
rate of change.yucks.
(:
com lab.
didnt come school ytd.
feel like a holiday lah.
cos ytd overslept.hahas.
slack at home.and rested
drank plenty of vitagen and got a stomach ache.lol..
meimei fell sick too.
high fever,flu cough.and two days of mc!
cant slp the whole nite ytd.
now having aches all over.
and slight headache.
ltr still got bio test.arghh
dun expect to pass again.
eee,
going to see doctor tdy.
cos of skin prob.sounds pretty disgusting.
hahas.lol
the weather is so hot now.
its not helping my skin...........i want aircon!
i want to go to the beach..
when its about to rain.
then it will be really windy till you have to strain your ears to hear your own voice.
the feeling of engulfment by the wind is so nice lah.
its like cutting you off from the world and all your troubles
its a form of running away from reality i suppose.
hais.
that's all.
i shall go do my differentiation.
rate of change.yucks.
(:
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